Donโ€™t let idiots ruin your day.

I donโ€™t even know ๐’˜๐’‰๐’š Iโ€™m writing this.

Iโ€™ve been going back and forth with posting this for almost a week now.

I knew I would get flack for writing this, people would talk sh*t, theyโ€™d say I was just doing it for attention, whatever. But I had to post this for the one whoโ€™s struggling. The one who hates this time of year because of all the food. The one who hates this time of year because of the family confrontations. The one who just doesnโ€™t think theyโ€™ll make it through another holiday season.

Iโ€™m writing this for ๐’š๐’๐’–.

Last week I went to the doctor for an annual check up, and the doctor said, โ€œ๐‘พ๐’†๐’๐’, ๐’•๐’‰๐’† ๐’๐’๐’๐’š ๐’•๐’‰๐’Š๐’๐’ˆ ๐’˜๐’“๐’๐’๐’ˆ ๐’˜๐’Š๐’•๐’‰ ๐’š๐’๐’–๐’“ ๐’‘๐’‰๐’š๐’”๐’Š๐’„๐’‚๐’ ๐’†๐’™๐’‚๐’Ž ๐’Š๐’” ๐’•๐’‰๐’‚๐’• ๐’š๐’๐’–’๐’—๐’† ๐’ˆ๐’‚๐’Š๐’๐’†๐’… 10๐’๐’ƒ๐’” ๐’”๐’Š๐’๐’„๐’† ๐’š๐’๐’–๐’“ ๐’๐’‚๐’”๐’• ๐’—๐’Š๐’”๐’Š๐’•.โ€

Talk about a punch to the gut (literally, gut). This year has been so hard for so many reasons. And yes, Iโ€™ve gained quite a bit of weight (way more than 10lbs) since March. But letโ€™s call a spade a spade. 2020 has been SHIT for so many reasons.

Maybe youโ€™re not in the same boat as me, but I have struggled with body image and weight since as long as I can remember. Legit, I remember being in elementary school and HATING hitting 50lbs… Now, much heavier than that Iโ€™m still struggling with body image and my โ€œidealโ€ weight.

I was starting to feel betterโ€”Iโ€™m working out 6-7 days a week, eating healthier and although I wasnโ€™t losing any weight, I was feeling better. And THAT made me happy.

Until, my doctor reminded me of that number on the scale. And frankly, it knocked me down. I cried that night before bed. And I got up and worked out harder the next morning.

And then I reached out to some friends and they brought me back to center. ๐‘บ๐’Š๐’”๐’•๐’†๐’“๐’”, ๐’‚๐’๐’˜๐’‚๐’š๐’”.

They helped remind me that there are SO MANY worse things that could have happened than gaining 10lbs. This year has been hard on most people. Weโ€™re living a new way of life. Weโ€™re learning a new normal. And if 10lbs is a part of surviving 2020, ๐’Š๐’• ๐’Š๐’” ๐’˜๐’‰๐’‚๐’• ๐’Š๐’• ๐’‡๐’“๐’†๐’‚๐’Œ๐’Š๐’๐’ˆ ๐’Š๐’”.

So, in case youโ€™re in the same spot I was last week, ๐’š๐’๐’– ๐’Ž๐’‚๐’•๐’•๐’†๐’“. Regardless of the number on the scale, the size of your leggings, the love handles over those jeans. ๐’€๐‘ถ๐‘ผ ๐‘ญ๐‘น๐‘ฌ๐‘จ๐‘ฒ๐‘ฐ๐‘ต๐‘ฎ ๐‘ด๐‘จ๐‘ป๐‘ป๐‘ฌ๐‘น. And you always will.

Donโ€™t let idiots ruin your day, especially your Turkey Day. Love you. Exactly as you are.